16 - [Accidental Video/Action]

[winds_voice]

[Eley wasn't happy.

Not only had he been subjected to an experiment that had forced him to relive an experience he was trying to forget, the recent post from the Malnosso had riled him up even more. So they did it then... they used that weapon. And all he did was sit back and let them.

The Spirit was finding that he was being pushed more and more to his limits lately. That yes, perhaps he was becoming more emotionally invested in things than he should. The truth was, he was sick of being trapped in this bubble with no way out and of being stuck in a world he barely understood. He couldn't go after them... he couldn't do anything. Even if he did somehow break free, he had no idea what he would do or what it would accomplish.

Eley was angry and frustrated and seemed to be losing grip on his emotions again even after returning to his otherwise normal state here. Of course, throwing his journal in his frustration had only caused a feed to record without his knowledge as it smacked against a rock. There isn't much to see, just a lot of dusty rocks at a slanted angle and a blue patch of sky. You can probably tell it's in the mountains at least.

...but it's what can be heard that's likely more worrying. There's a large crashing sound followed by the incessant tumbling of several small fragments of rock clattering to the ground. The image of the feed becomes obscured by dust, and then everything falls silent.]

Comments

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[ofwesternwinds]

[He notices the feed and in all honesty it's a little more than just worrying. It's an awfully familiar sight considering what had happened not too long ago. Eley breaking, losing control of himself and leaving Rudy to go out and try picking up the pieces.

Hence why he doesn't waste any time gathering his things once the feed cuts out. It might take him a while to reach the mountains, but he's sure he knows Eley well enough by now for him not to be going anywhere anytime soon.]

[action]

[winds_voice]

[Luckily, it seemed that Eley had reached a point where he was too exhausted to keep fighting anymore, so when Rudy finds him he'll notice that the Spirit appears to be kneeling on the ground just... staring into space. He doesn't seem to be aware that anyone has come up here, in fact.

...and again there are shattered rocks around him where his anger had gotten the better of him and he had felt the need to channel it somewhere. He may not be a dragon anymore and he may now remember and understand where he was... but somehow that didn't seem to comfort him.]

[action]

[ofwesternwinds]

[... Doesn't seem like he's noticed. Quietly, Rudy approaches the spirit, placing a gentle hand over his shoulder before taking a seat himself.]

Thought I'd find you out here.

[action]

[winds_voice]

[Eley flinches as he feels someone suddenly touching him on the shoulder and turns to see... Rudy?]

What are you doing here? Nobody should know that I am out here... or what I have been doing.

[He'd done enough damage before that people had witnessed first-hand. Eley wanted to protect them now... let him try to deal with it alone where they wouldn't be afraid or hurt.]

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[ofwesternwinds]

That's, well, a little hard when you sort of left your journal on.

[With a concerned frown he holds up the journal, having collected it earlier.]

See? ... I recognized this place, so, um, I came here.

[action]

[winds_voice]

... [Oh. That would be a logical reason yes... The Spirit looks a bit embarrassed that his little outburst must have been captured in some form in that case.

He gives a soft sigh.]

I know you must be concerned for me. I have found myself overwhelmed by recent events. Being shifted back into the mental state I found myself in after being rejected on Aether... was something I did not want to revisit. I did not want to scare anyone either, or do them harm.

Then I learned of that weapon being used against the cultists. I know this is not my world, my war, and I know little about the details behind the conflict, but... it still upsets me to see such a weapon used on so many people. Not only that but... the tone, the attitude of the Malnosso. I am feeling more trapped by the day and I feel that they care little about it.

I have an... urge I suppose, to break free. To do something about this. Though I know not what.

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[ofwesternwinds]

... I know. It was hard for all of us.

[Rudy frowns at the mention of the shift bomb. He remembers being present -- how everyone had to be present -- for that discussion, and how hard it was for everyone to settle on a decision. And he knew very well how much Eley didn't approve of war or violence.

It wasn't easy by any means. Nor did everybody approve of it -- Rudy certainly recalls Cross's outburst at them well enough. And thinking about it, there very well could be others outside the barrier or in other enclosures who felt the same way. No matter what decision they would have made that day, there really weren't any winners. CJ's attitude in his recent annoucement only served to rub it in.]

Can't say I'm fond of how they're treating this either. I know they're supposed to be the ones helping us, but... [He trails off, leaning back into the ground with a drawn-out sigh. It's frustrating.] There's just so much going on right now.

[Video]

[savedtheworld]

[Aang peers into the journal, wondering what's going on.]

Hello? Is... everything okay?

[Video]

[winds_voice]

[It's some time before Eley actually comes back to even look at his journal, but when he does he likely looks a bit dishevelled. So this was recording? How was he supposed to explain this?]

Forgive me if my actions caused you concern. I was... merely trying to vent my emotions without involving other people. Recent events have left me feeling... rather frustrated.

[Video]

[savedtheworld]

Oh... I see. That's understandable. Sometimes you just gotta... let frustration out, instead of letting it bottle up. [He pauses - something about his voice seems familiar in a way.] Did we... talk recently?

[Video]

[winds_voice]

[At least Aang seemed to understand why he was doing what he was doing. Perhaps it wasn't so abnormal after all...

That question certainly catches his attention though.]

Yes... I believe we did. [He pauses, thinking back to that experiment where he was trapped in his other form, a slave to his emotions. It wasn't helping his mood any in the present either. He sounded tired.] I was a dragon at that time... I was angry then as well. You tried to talk to me and sought to understand me, I believe.

[Video]

[savedtheworld]

[Aang certainly didn't find it abnormal. Even he felt anger and pain. And he knew the important of channeling it in ways that wouldn't hurt others. Especially when emotional imbalance could trigger the Avatar State.]

Wow... you were that dragon! You... you were a really great dragon!

[Video]

[winds_voice]

[A great dragon? He didn't quite expect those words and for a moment Eley seems surprised to her them.]

Ah... thank you. There was a time where many others would share your sentiment. I have not had much praise of late.

Still, you do not mind that I tried to attack you?

[Eley was ashamed about his lack of control and it showed.]

[Video]

[spohkh]

[Spock's brows furrow in worry.]

Eleytheria? Are you injured? Do you require medical assistance?

[Video]

[winds_voice]

[Eley doesn't notice the video message at first, but soon he replies, looking rather worn out and somewhat distant.]

It is all right... I am not hurt. I... simply needed a way to let out the emotions building within me. I have not been feeling well due to recent events.

Forgive me for worrying you.

Re: [Video]

[spohkh]

What has happened?

Where are you?

[Because Spock will totally go there if he has to.]

[Video]

[winds_voice]

[Eley was about to protest... but he'd tried it all before. Even if he tried, he knew his friends would persist in finding a way to help him regardless. So maybe this time he should just tell Spock where he is and let him make his own mind up.

He sighs.]

I am in the mountains. If you really wish to find me then I will explain when you arrive.

[See? He knows you're going to go after him already.]

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[spohkh]

[Spock can be seen getting up from his seat, and walking out the door.]

I am on my way there. Please, tell me of your situation. Is your.... friend safe?

[Because Spock could imagine that a death of a friend would put Eley in this state.]

[Video/Action]

[winds_voice]

[It was somewhat of a relief that what Spock was asking about was one thing that Eley didn't have to feel concerned about anymore, he would admit that much.]

Yes... Rudy is safe now. This is more of a personal matter. I am becoming rather tired of being trapped and manipulated by the Malnosso, and I cannot condone their recent actions.

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[idealism]

[The end of the feed is worrying Tsuzuki too much. In the end, he hurries to the place he hopes that Eleytheria is, hoping that he didn't get hurt in the process of destroying his journal.]

[Of course it has to be up on a mountain. Short of breath, he nevertheless calls out.]

Eley?

[action]

[winds_voice]

[The mountains were a good place to come when Eley wanted to be left alone. And he thought he did want to be left alone until a familiar voice echoes ahead. The Spirit can be found kneeling down, still dusty from whatever it is he had done. Which seemed to involve venting his anger at the surrounding rocks with the way fragments were littered all around him.

He didn't respond to that voice... not until Tsuzuki came closer. Only then did he look up and acknowledge that he wasn't alone. He looked tired.]

Tsuzuki...

[action]

[idealism]

[Tsuzuki had to walk slowly, because as he got closer he also had to pay for the way he had hurried up the mountainside. His breathing was still laboured.]

[Eleytheria didn't sound like himself. Since when did gods of wind get tired? Tsuzuki came closer, eyeing the dust and destruction as he walked. That only reminded him of things he would rather forget.]

Are you hurt?

[action]

[winds_voice]

[Eley shook his head. He hadn't injured himself and what had happened out of view on the journal had been more noise than anything else. But he'd spent far too much time lately flaunting his powers for things he wouldn't otherwise bother with. He'd spent too long feeling angry and wild as he had done before... and with the knowledge that the Malnosso had unleashed a weapon on others, the Spirit's emotions still hadn't calmed down as they should have.]

You need not have hurried out here. I am... all right. Merely troubled.

[action]

[idealism]

[Tsuzuki looked at the rubble again, but said nothing. He had seen gods releasing their pent up energy before. Depending on their powers and personalities, their destruction always looked different. He sat down next to Eley, his wings flapping gently. Eleytheria used to put in a good effort to talk with him, so perhaps the trick to getting him back on track now was to do just that.]

Troubled?

[action]

[winds_voice]

The Malnosso... First they force me back to a point in time I am trying to forget and send me on a rampage which could have hurt, perhaps killed many in the process, including friends. Then I discover that a bomb was used to wipe out hundreds. I was on that mission... I did nothing to stop it.

I hate the Malnosso and yet I can do nothing with that hatred. Even if I could, I would be fighting against something I do not entirely understand.

I feel... trapped.

[And that was not a good position to be in for any Spirit, especially not one whose name meant freedom.]