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[Eley seems to be sitting near the site of his recently planted tree by the river today. With the journal held in front of him and perched on his lap, you can catch glimpses of the grassy bank behind him and perhaps a flash of colour from the hill in the distance. The sound of flowing water can also be heard from the nearby river.

The Spirit himself seems rather thoughtful again.]

As a deity in my world I am not unfamiliar with the idea that humans are always desiring one thing or another. People are always wishing, always hoping, and they often turn to me for a way to achieve that which they most want. They vary greatly... from a general desire for peace and health to something more specific, such as finding a partner or acquiring an item they have been wanting for some time. I have also experienced terrible greed firsthand... a greed that has severed good ties between nations and even threatened to destroy one in the process.

In the past I would not share these desires, but since I have steadily grown to feel more human since my stay here I am beginning to wonder what it is that I truly want... and what I might do to gain it.

Is there really any point to holding onto futile dreams? Longing for something that you are certain you cannot have? When does it become necessary to hold onto such a hope and when does it become a problem?

And I must ask... what is it that you desire most? More importantly, what would you do to attain it?

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[It's been some time since the Daughter of Wind and Rain spoke to this particular wind spirit. But that question, in light of the great gift she was given last week?]

If there is something you dream for, then of course you should hold onto it and take it. As we've discussed in the past, Eleytheria, our kinds are different. As different as we are from humans, I believe. And I think this is a big reason why I feel that way.

I and all my kin want and desire. We are fundamental parts of creation, but we're alive and we hope and dream. Often in ways that mortal minds do not understand, or in ways that are impossible to communicate to any but ourselves, but we do.

For myself, love. The love of my partner. And there is nothing I would not do to keep that love. I would tear apart mountains and drain seas to get it back if it was stolen from me.

[There was that word again. Love. He felt he was coming closer to understanding what it was, but not the truth about it... what it really felt to have that and how it might affect someone so much.]

Love also seems to be something that is commonly sought after among humans. It is something I have not come to grips with yet... but I would not be above experiencing it should it happen.

Since I have begun to feel more human emotions, I too have begun to develop hopes and dreams for the future. I do not foresee them happening very soon, however. Perhaps it is wrong of me, a Spirit, to hold onto such things.

It's not something you really can come to grips with. Sometimes it hits you like a sudden gale, sometimes not at all. Sometimes it's wonderful, and sometimes toxic. It's the most volatile thing someone can try to hold, and the most soothing. And as we've talked about before, it's impossible to really put it to words.

[She laughs, and hums a few bars of 'What is Love']

It's not wrong. Don't be silly. Emotions are hardly something detrimental to my people, why should they be to yours?

Something so... unpredictable seems like something not really seem worth pursuing. Then again I have never really tried to take risks if I could avoid it. Besides, if it can be that sudden, perhaps there is no way of really avoiding it after all.

Emotions are only a distraction to my kind. While positive emotions would not hinder us, negative ones could unravel the world, make it fall apart. I would not stop that which I have found now, but my purpose makes it difficult to... let go and give in to these feelings at times.

There's nothing worth pursuing more than love. I realize it's a very ephemeral concept, but that's a part of what makes it so important.

[She stops writing for a second, trying to think of how to access that.]

If I understand your world correctly, then that's like me and mine. We have purpose, a duty that we have to do and we are literally fundamental elements of what we represent. Without me, there is no rain. Without my uncle there is no war, and so on and so forth. Emotions...don't cause distractions, they help us.

I... see. Then what of unrequited love? Surely that would do more harm than good? I find it difficult to understand how something can be so worthwhile and so painful at the same time.

Yes, that is correct. If myself or any of my brethren were to be removed from the world, life would fail. Still, I have to wonder how emotions can provide help alongside our work. I feel as though they would only make things more... complicated.

Unrequited love can lead to hurt, yes. But it can also become a driving force in someone's life. Make a being dynamic and changing. And that's rarely bad.

It's the same for us, though...I think perhaps you need to stop thinking about complications so much. [She can hardly believe she's saying it, bound up in rules and taboos like she is.] Curiosity and worry are emotions too, and you show them often enough. If you didn't, you'd just sit there and do your duty and then where would you be? Nothing would ever change, nothing new would ever happen, and you'd ultimately just...be the wind, instead of a spirit of the wind.

I cannot say if I would personally consider change inherently bad or not... but I know that it is not always the case. Still, I cannot imagine a pain that deep becoming something... positive. It may just be that I have not experienced it for myself.

...there was a time when my duty was all there was of me. I know I have changed though. I have encountered many positive things despite my own confusion. Perhaps I should try to listen to my emotions instead of analysing them so closely. You may be right.

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