Yes, it really is that sad. For some being to live without enjoyment and only to fulfill a purpose, even a spirit like you, is to be something barely alive. I have my duties and responsibilities, yes, but that doesn't stop me from indulging my interests and enjoying my existence. That's part of the reason we have thoughts, I think. So we can find what we enjoy, and enjoy it. Otherwise, what is the purpose of living?

[She has a very, very easy outlook on a lot of things Particularly that.]

I think that looking for many interests might do you some good, so you can find the things you enjoy and make up for lost time.

[A nod follows]

I think that learning and testing oneself can be fun, yes. I see no reason why they can't. After all, learning is at the heart of all of my interests.